My Heightened Senses

Date 26 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
I never tire of finding ways to understand my damaged brain and what I deal with, how what I deal with plays out and how it may affect me in my daily life. My Heightened Senses Having heightened senses means I perceive issues long before they outwardly present and notice…
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The Lifting of Masks

Date 23 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
I took the opportunity to go out to a local retail park with my mask on, before the lifting of masks becomes compulsory on the 19th July. The Manager explained that once the measures in place to protect us are lifted, all shop staff will continue to wear masks for…
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My Parents' Validation

Date 18 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
The Spirit World is our real home, it is a divine place where we come from before our physical experiences. Our loved ones who go back to spirit once their physical journeys are complete will continue to be in touch with us in our every-day lives. The spirit world and…
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At home and self-isolating

Date 15 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Covid-19 has become more divisive, and I am at home. On the odd occasion I go out, I mask up and social distance to keep myself safe. Vulnerable people being 'thrown to the wolves' Recent newspaper articles say vulnerable people feel they’ve been ‘thrown to the wolves’ with our worlds…
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The Universal Way

Date 9 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Even as a small child with my problems around a disability I didn’t know I had, I unconsciously held on to the belief that I was more than I was dealing with, in the wider world, the bigger context of who I was. I was sure I would have a…
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UK's handling of Covid-19

Date 6 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Living with the pandemic has sent my anxiety into overdrive and with autism, I still have my struggle days. It’s difficult, because for every reason you tell yourself you can do something, you’ve already given yourself ten reasons ...
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Why we hold on to anger

Date 1 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
“Anger is defined as an emotion characterised by tension and hostility arising from frustration, real or imagined injury by another, or perceived injustice” – Google Anger Anger is a spontaneous response to an issue or situation that ...
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Struggling to come to terms

Date 28 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Getting myself off the starting block for taking the vaccine, is near to impossible. Living with Covid-19 has sent my anxiety and autism into overdrive. For every reason I tell myself I can do it, I’ve already given myself ten reasons why ...
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Growing up with a determination

Date 23 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Had everything come together, and everyone done their job around my disability, I would have been put into a special school, so my life would have been worse in that respect, but I still never grew up the way I wanted to. Although ...
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Going out for the first time

Date 20 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
t’s been 15 months now since the UK initially went into lockdown in March 2021 due to Covid-19, and with the outside world feeling beyond my reach mentally and emotionally, today is a pinnacle moment. I managed to go out. Yes, going out for the first time to a grocery…
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Autism, free-falling into a tailspin

Date 10 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
When my gut and intuition are in sync with my understanding I do bring clarity to my issues, otherwise I free fall into a tailspin. As a child, where my parents-initiated decisions, I lived with no stress in that regard. Living with ...
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Reflecting on my trauma

Date 8 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
No matter what I had to deal with around my mental, emotional and physical struggles as a small child, giving in wasn’t an option. Although my symptoms didn’t make sense, my every day mental and emotional struggles were ...
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