When Fear is Learned

Date 23 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
When Lived Experience Meets Research Although my experiences are deeply personal, many of the things I struggled with growing up are reflected in research. Not knowing anything as a child, I've had to research everything as ...
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Twin Loss Without the Mirror

Date 19 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
A Quiet Bond, A Life Forever Changed Grief after the loss of a twin is deeply misunderstood. Many people assume twin relationships are defined by mirrored identities and continual closeness. But not all twins share that dynamic ...
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Writing Through The Noise

Date 16 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Continuing to Write with Hope in an Unbalanced World This is a personal reflection on how, for me, writing has become more challenging in today’s world – shaped by social change, politics, and a growing loss of fairness and ...
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Why I Write: Staying Honest Through Change

Date 12 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
On Change, Continuity, and Staying True to why This Space Exists If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you may have noticed a few small changes in how things look around here. I’ve been making some behind-the-scenes ...
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Healing is Learning to Live with Loss

Date 8 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Grief and Learning to Live Without My Twin Grief has a strange way of teaching you, even when you don’t want the lesson. It cannot be avoided or rescheduled. Losing my twin reminds me just how quickly life can change. I haven’t ...
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The CP Diary: Finding My Voice

Date 8 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
For decades, I lived with something I struggled with, something I didn't know I had. It influenced more than I understood at the time. I didn’t question it, because it wasn't a choice. Instead, I assumed that was simply how ...
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Depression is Real: Living with Cerebral Palsy, Autism and Anxiety

Date 1 December 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
For those who read The CP Diary articles, thank you. You’ll already know the story behind my words – the cerebral palsy, the autism, the anxiety. You’ll know the confusion and upset that comes from living with a ...
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The Space Between Us

Date 29 November 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Writing as Life Unfolds With autism, which so often roots itself in fear, I use this space to write about my life as it happens – the challenges, and the way they shape my emotional health and wellbeing. My writing isn’t ...
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The Strength Behind The CP Diary

Date 24 November 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Growing up without understanding or answers meant facing challenges that weren’t understood. For me, especially as someone living with hidden disabilities and navigating early childhood adversity, it felt like I was ...
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Growing Up Undiagnosed: The Pain of Being Misunderstood

Date 20 November 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
My more personal blogs shape my understanding of who I am. Growing up with something I didn’t have a name for what was difficult. Although I knew things were harder, I didn't know why – I only knew that my experiences ...
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Creating Your Daily Space for Clarity and Calm

Date 18 November 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Guiding Yourself to a Better Life With regular daily reflections, The CP Diary offers ongoing guidance and inspiration. The CP Diary is reflective. It's designed to help readers create a better, more intentional life. Through calm ...
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Late Acknowledgement

Date 15 November 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
The Long-held Silence, and Beginning to Heal My Story I’ve been sitting with something heavy these past few days – something that's become overwhelming, but felt quiet initially. An apology. An apology that wasn't given ...
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