"I continue to write about Covid-19 on The CP Diary, because I'd cope less not talking about it. With lockdown finished, the UK Government has forced those who are high risk, out of their homes.

With pubs already open and restaurants and bars due to open today, I have no choice but to stay home. With too many lives lost and with the continued handling of the UK Government, we're being told to expect a second wave. The confinement is beginning to take its toll on me mentally, which given the nature of my disability and the fact that I deal with autism, increases the pressure on my mental health.

It's taken me months to adapt to the idea of the virus. With autism I have struggled to get my head around it. Too late to go into lockdown, too many lives were lost; too soon to lift restrictions; and now with a ‘new normal’ I am confined to my home once more.

There are those who are not considered high risk who may also confine themselves to their homes. The independent scientists don’t agree with the decisions being taken by the UK Government and whilst we would all like to see the economy thrive, it shouldn't be at the cost of people's lives.

We have an individual responsibility to ourselves, we also have a societal responsibility. We should equate and work on the assumption that we should all be part of the solution – to look out for others also and to work together."

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “Confinements of Lockdown”

  1. It is now clear that we will be living with this virus for the foreseeable future and you are absolutely right that we must all accept individual and collective responsibility for minimising its fatal effects.

    Unfortunately, we also know that human traits such as selfishness and stupidity aren't going away either. As the saying goes, if you're not part of the solution, then you're part of the problem.

    1. Thanks. Yes, you've said what most of us will be thinking. It is a human failing, which is not only going to cost more lives with a second spike, it may even cost them their lives too.

      And whilst the Government are have initial responsibility, we have responsibility to ourselves and each other, to keep us all safe.

      1. The Covid-19 virus is getting worse and our private attitudes towards this pandemic is making less sense by the day, people are actually ignoring it.

        We need a worldwide strategy to submit to and obey, otherwise this virus will continue to have its way with us.

        We have broken spirits and it shows.

        1. Thanks Tim. Yes, your sentiments are mine too, but I'm not sure how much it's got to do with their governments, more ignoring Covid_19 for Covid_19's sake.

          Either way what we have will never end well. As you eloquently say Tim, 'this virus will continue to have its way with us' - it is because we are not taking it seriously.

          It is important we backtrack, so we can contain the virus and take control. I am just wondering how many more lives does the virus have to claim, before it's taken seriously?

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