I am not sure how I think or feel this morning, but I tend to go through these phases. Things tick over nicely, then my bad thoughts and feelings are there, like a bolt out of the blue.

I know I would have been more emotionally settled with support. I’ll never know because it never happened that way. I've also just found out that tonight I have been re-booked into hospital, to have the last part of my lesion on my nose removed.

Although it doesn’t please me because I will have more healing to work through, I will be able to finally put the experience behind me. I hope this will be the end of my surgery for the foreseeable future.

The older I get, the harder it gets to motivate myself for things like this. I know this is responsible for my reflective mood this morning.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “My reflective mood”

    1. Thank you Lisa. I'm doing fine this morning. Thank you for thinking of me. Hope you're okay too.

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