I am not sure how I think or feel this morning, but I tend to go through these phases. Things tick over nicely, then my bad thoughts and feelings are there, like a bolt out of the blue.

I know I would have been more emotionally settled with support. I’ll never know because it never happened that way. I've also just found out that tonight I have been re-booked into hospital, to have the last part of my lesion on my nose removed.

Although it doesn’t please me because I will have more healing to work through, I will be able to finally put the experience behind me. I hope this will be the end of my surgery for the foreseeable future.

The older I get, the harder it gets to motivate myself for things like this. I know this is responsible for my reflective mood this morning.