I can’t be bothered to do or think about anything. I don't think I'm unhappy because I feel fairly relaxed, but it probably comes from having to deal with so much this week.

I’m thinking about myself and not putting much thought into anything else. I know I will have to refocus at some point so that I can continue to function, but I like having 'me time.' It allows me to continue to deal with and focus on everything that’s going on around me.

If I know something is going to have a stressful impact on me ,I take myself out of that situation mentally, until such a time I am able to adjust. It's my coping mechanism. I love having that time to myself.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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6 comments on “My yesterday”

    1. I have to say I enjoyed every moment. I just love the tranquility of being alone with my thoughts, without a care in the world.

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