It’s amazing how in one day I can feel so inspirational, together and happy and the next day I feel the total opposite. When I’m on top of my game, my blogs reflect positive thoughts, and when I’m not, I write about my struggles, whatever those struggles are.

I believe we all have insecure tendencies and those insecurities, show in how we communicate with others, why we see others at fault and why we’re never to blame for our behaviour. I don't choose to pass the buck, unless I need to pass the buck.

When we spiral down we bring others down and fail to see that we're to blame. Lately, I have been grappling with the way I walk and have been feeling slightly demoralised. I remember coming out of school for parents evening and my daughter's form tutor commenting on my limp.

I didn’t know she was behind me, or just how obvious my limp was until she followed me out of school. My feelings today haven't been great, but I'm hoping to blog about something a little more upbeat and positive tomorrow.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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6 comments on “Today's feelings”

  1. Hey you, my inspirational supporter. 🙂

    You always bring me up when I am down and are always around to hear me complain when you have more to deal with than even my problems.

    I love you for who you are and how strong you are. Please let me repay the favor and see if I can help you, the way you have helped me. Teena

    1. That would be lovely Teena. Thank you for such a wonderful complement. I am pleased to be able to help.

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