For anyone moving house, it can be a stressful time. Moving is a significant life event, but particularly when circumstances around it are less than ideal. In August, moving house for the first time without my twin, is going to be compounded by her absence.

The sense of being forced into moving for the first time without my twin, rather than making a proactive choice under different circumstances, is adding another layer of difficulty to my decision to move. My twin lived three doors away. Everything has changed.

Navigating A Move Without My Twin

I now find myself navigating a significant life change without my twin, driven by necessity. In different circumstances, this would have been a choice brought on by choice, a decision I would have made willingly; but the current situation has dictated an altogether different path. It is the right decision to move.

Moving House

When anything is forced, it can evoke feelings of resentment. It's a struggle, but I'm taking heart in knowing my new location is in more of a peaceful setting, so I'm hoping I will struggle less. Moving without my twin means facing the practical and emotional challenges of relocation on my own and the start of a new life without her. The process feels forced, overwhelming.

The Emotional Impact

The emotional impact is significant. My twin's permanent absence and my impending move, is heightening feelings of continued loneliness and isolation. The move is reminding me she's no longer with me, amplifying the stress and uncertainty that also comes with leaving a place that has become familiar behind. It's not just a physical relocation, but it's an emotional upheaval too.

A Journey That's Testing My Resilience

Moving house in August without my twin, will be a poignant reminder of just what I have lost. It’s a journey that is testing my resilience and adaptability, now pushing me to find the strength within myself.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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