Out of everything I have had to deal with, my handwriting is something I continue to struggle with. It's not something I am always comfortable in talking about.

Although I understand why I struggled to join up the outlines on my handwriting as a child, my handwriting is still something I struggle with. Understanding why validates the struggle. It’s another part of my struggle, of my disability, and a part of ‘me.' It’s what I get to deal with, not something I can change.

This is just another piece of my cerebral palsy jigsaw. Around the creative side of my damaged brain, it's something I continue to struggle with. I can remember handwriting issues and my teachers’ comments, asking me to write bigger and speed up, neither of which I could do.

Years on and it's clear why it was impossible. My struggle is years on having to continue to struggle, with no help.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

Most people who read this blog

went on to read these blogs next
Date 26 October 2026
Author Ilana Estelle

Healing Earth Side: Putting Mental Health First

Learning to Live Well With What I Cannot Change. I have come to understand that healing is not always about fixing what is wrong. As my experience shows, some things are beyond our control, and therefore healing ...
Read more
Date 22 October 2026
Author Ilana Estelle

Do You Have To Forgive?

Finding closure by letting go of guilt and responsibility that were never yours to carry Every child has a right to know who they are and what they are living with. This is part of my healing journey. I spent much of my ...
Read more
Date 19 October 2026
Author Ilana Estelle

The Understanding I Didn't Have

Living With Cerebral Palsy and Autism Six decades of living with cerebral palsy and autism without the understanding that might have helped me make sense of myself. What happens when you go through life with ...
Read more
1 2 3 … 691

2 comments on “Unresolved handwriting issues”

  1. You have the answers to why you struggled with your handwriting and also why those struggles were ignored and why you didn't get the help you needed and deserved.

    This was never your issue to resolve so 'give' it to those whose issue it was to own. It wasn't and isn't yours, but theirs.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Subscribe to receive regular updates

Enter your details below to be the first to receive updates on new articles on my blog.