Happy New Year! Welcome to 2025. I want to express my heartfelt gratitude to everyone for their support throughout 2024. Thank you for taking the time to read my work. I hope you’ve gained as much from my writing as I have from creating it.

"The concept of writing for me is straightforward: sharing my deepest thoughts and feelings through a blog is transformative. Over the years, by reflecting on my stressful experiences, I have learned to process a lot of my emotions, uncover hidden perspectives and discover insights buried deep within my psyche – insights I didn’t know existed.

Through 14 years of writing, my words, thoughts and perceptions have evolved, I hope for others too. I hope that when you read my reflections, you can find pieces of your own story mirrored in mine. My blog invites the reader to confront their emotions directly, fostering a better understanding of themselves and their lives. Moving forward with conviction may not always be easy, but in 2025 it's a goal worth pursuing. Let this be the year you confront and address the past, including any trauma you may have.

There is still one part of my story that I am struggling to terms with. The secrecy surrounding 'my story' – the secrecy behind not knowing I had a disability, the life and lies I've had to endure, made to live. It's 46 years of a secret – having to uncover it myself – finding out more about my secret, with everything stemming from that one secret. Then finding out I was diagnosed at 2. In terms of why I write. I write to learn and to understand. What happened to me spanned too many years. The trauma I sustained, is not something you can easily walk away, or heal from.

But through writing, each of my personal blogs are a reminder that my experiences are valid, that my story matters, and that by facing them, I can reclaim some of my power. Choosing to confront my past, and my life experiences has been enormously challenging at times – impossible. Yet, through writing, what will be my fifteenth year in May, I hope to continue to find the strength to confront a disability shroud in secrecy – truthfully with no forthcoming acceptance or apologies on how I sustained my trauma, I am struggling to get past and over the enormity of it."

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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