A week passed

Date 13 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
I dedicate this blog to anyone who is still going through, or has gone through dealing with a relative who is terminally ill. It’s been a week since my father passed and I’m feeling okay about it. I’m just very tired. Although I dealt with my father’s illness the way…
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Misguided assumptions

Date 12 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
It’s funny how people will comment about a child’s success and then query at the same time how it’s even possible given the child’s parentage. Working on afforded opportunities Just because parents don’t always have the right opportunities, doesn’t mean they are any less clever than their children. Some children…
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After the storm

Date 10 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
As with all bereavements, life goes on after the funeral. My thoughts are calm. The mopping up process will begin next week. For now I’m taking time to chill and spend time with all my family, because as from Monday everything ...
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Conspicuous by absence

Date 9 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Although I went to my father’s funeral, I’m not unhappy about it because I know he’s finally at peace. From my own experience of funerals though, they can often bring out the worst in us. I’ve been to many funerals and what is always noticeable is those people who fail…
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Parallel lives

Date 7 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
As a young adult, I used to see the passing of someone as a final gesture, not something that was an extension of where they had already come from: the spirit world. Before we’re born into this life, we come from spirit and have lived other lives. As we prepare…
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Issues and Illness

Date 4 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
I have always known how important it is for us to deal with personal issues before the person we have an issue with is no longer around. Working through my father’s illness taught me that. A few years after my mum passed, my father was told he had lymphoma. Because…
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Holding on

Date 1 March 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
I’ll be doing a more extended blog on this shortly, but it’s a human instinct to want to hold on to life instead of letting go and that can lead to more frustration, particularly when the person we’re trying to hold on to, doesn’t want to stay. I understand when…
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Circles

Date 26 February 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Going round in circles springs to mind this morning, when I look at where I am with everything that’s going on. I suppose the good part is that I’ve not taken a step back, but it would be great if I could take just one step forward. I’m looking forward…
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Other people's emotions

Date 24 February 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Every negative emotion we carry from other people are energies that if left, can potentially become our negative emotions too. Because our brains are like emotional sponges, it is even more important we challenge ourselves so that we’re not constantly being drawn into other people’s emotions, particularly if they’re negative…
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Actions and Reactions

Date 21 February 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
We’re taught that it’s okay to turn the other cheek on someone’s bad behaviour. Like it is okay for them to behave badly and for us to turn the other cheek. I remember being taught the exact thing as a child. It all comes down to the way people react…
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My feelings now

Date 20 February 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
It felt good having cleared up so many uncertainties that have been outstanding over the last few weeks and which are based around my father’s illness and although for a short while I have felt elated, I am actually feeling the opposite today. It’s often the effort we make that…
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Uncertainties more certain

Date 18 February 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Well today hasn’t been such a bad day after all. I’ve managed to resolve all my uncertainties and feel much better about them. Unfortunately, dealing with any terminal illness brings about lots of uncertainties, so being able to resolve those are important. Of course our issues won’t always revolve around…
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