Resting

Date 8 September 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
Ever had one of those days where you don't achieve anything? Well this is one of those days. Daniel is going back to St Andrews on Monday, so today we're just having a chill day. I will be back on the site ...
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Goodbye to negative feelings

Date 7 September 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
This is the first time in a long time that I have had so many negative feelings, brought on by so much negativity going on around me. What I was going to write about today I will write about tomorrow. My job today is to turn my negative feelings around,…
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My not so good day

Date 5 September 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
My not so good thoughts are back today. I am usually strong, but then I have my moments of losing clarity, feelings of despondency, feeling lost and feelings of isolation. Something was said that holds true in my thoughts and has only just registered with me. Living with cerebral palsy…
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Working through the past

Date 4 September 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
In my previous blog, I wrote about taking responsibility for our past so that we can move on and look to our future, but like many things in life, in reality it’s never that simple or easy to do. These are my thoughts about the past and how we can…
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A parent thing

Date 3 September 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
I am sure none of us consciously bring up our children to believe that it has to be our way and if it’s not our way, it’s the wrong way. When we watch our children struggle because of what they have to deal with, it’s hard to see why they…
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New beginnings

Date 31 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
Writing about what I’ve had to deal with means it would be inevitable that I would feel like this. I have had to work through and climb mountains to get to this stage. Over the next few weeks, months and beyond, through my writing, I will incorporate wellness and keep…
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Just blah

Date 28 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
It has been one of those days for me where I feel just blah, blah because I don’t know exactly what I feel, blah because others around me are feeling blah, blah because my daughter goes back to school on Monday, blah because the summer holidays have been miserable and…
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What I deal with

Date 25 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
There is lots I have to deal with. I am still dealing with my fall from Monday, nursing myself from that but then having problems with IBS, which brings home just how sensitive and vulnerable I have become to what I deal with on a daily basis. Some of my…
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Where I'm at today

Date 22 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
I know I have written about acceptance and closure before, but I’m questioning now, whether Cerebral Palsy is something I will be able to accept or bring closure on. Tomorrow I know that may all change depending on where I’m at emotionally. I tried to close the bedroom blinds yesterday…
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Time to move on

Date 19 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
I tend to write what comes naturally to me and this was on my mind. There is still negativity around me coming from others that is making my stress and what I deal with harder. There is no doubt in my mind that I would do far better if I…
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Stress factors

Date 16 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
Since mum died, there have been lots of changes, some of which I have personally instigated, and changes others have instigated, fully expecting my family and I to work and fit into, without our consent. We’re finding that hard. Then our pet rabbit (toffee) passed away at the weekend and…
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Life's Lessons

Date 13 August 2010
Author Ilana Estelle
I usually write what comes in to my intuitive mind. We all have stress, but stress isn’t an excuse for the way we deal with ourselves and then go on to deal with others. Stress may sometimes come our way, through other people’s decisions (primarily in cultured families) and without…
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