Growing Up Without Knowing

Date 4 July 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Not rewriting my childhood. Finally understanding it. I still find it strikingly difficult to comprehend the life I've lived. Not because it was extraordinary, but because looking back so much of it was inaccessible to me, as though ...
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Understanding My Past

Date 1 July 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
The Life I Have Lived There are moments in life when you look backwards rather than forwards. With the life I've lived, I now find myself re-examining my childhood and adulthood through a different lens. For many years ...
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Losing Mum Changed How I Understood My Life

Date 26 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Loss became the understanding of the life I had always lived A friend once said that sometimes we have to lose someone we love before we can see what was always there. I believe that is true. As hard as it was losing Mum ...
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The Greatest Barrier is Being Misunderstood

Date 20 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Understanding Disability Begins When We Stop Making Assumptions For much of my life, I believed I was the one who needed to change. I have spent decades trying to meet expectations that were never designed ...
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Where Trauma Lives Now

Date 14 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Loss exposes old wounds and can leave survival at the centre of daily life Only after losing my twin did I realise how much of my life had never needed explaining. We each carried our trauma separately and kept much of ...
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A Change in Perspective

Date 11 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Changing the Lens: Reclaiming My Own Narrative It has taken me six decades to see myself more clearly, and I am still learning who I am. For years, I struggled with mental anguish and emotional turmoil simply to ...
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Breaking the Silence on Mental Health

Date 8 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Challenging stigma and encouraging honest conversations about mental health Actress Kristen Bell captures the reality on mental health perfectly in the following quote, reminding us that mental health challenges do not ...
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When Neurological Differences are Misunderstood

Date 6 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
How Misunderstanding Creates Barriers for People with Neurological Differences When people think about disability, they often think about physical limitations. They think about mobility, accessibility, and ...
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Absence, and Its Influence

Date 4 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
Sometimes what is missing shapes us just as much as what is present We often pay attention to what is present in our lives. The words people say, the actions they take, the support they offer, and the relationships they build ...
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Desperate for Change

Date 2 June 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
After sixteen years of writing, I still believe compassion, common sense and humanity matter After sixteen years of writing, one thing has become increasingly clear to me: despite all our technological advances ...
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The Quiet Persistence of Loss and Grief

Date 27 May 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
The Quiet Emotions That Continue Beneath Loss There is definitely depression there. I live with it every day. Some days it is quieter than others. Some days it becomes impossible to ignore. Without my twin, it feels ...
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The Shape of This Loss

Date 23 May 2026
Author Ilana Estelle
After Losing My Twin It’s been three years since I lost my twin, and I still find some parts of the experience difficult to explain. Grief does not unfold in the same way for everyone. Within families, members often cope ...
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