Unprocessed Trauma

Date 2 August 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
Unprocessed trauma and grief comes in many forms and one size doesn’t fit all. As a child, I lived with trauma around a disability I didn’t know I had. It would go on to take me 56 years to work through my own trauma. Since ...
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Floundering through Life

Date 26 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
Having gone through life mentally and emotionally locked, I didn’t connect with the fact that I was floundering, until the penny dropped, and I realised life was passing me by and I had no clue what my disability was. For ...
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Being Institutionalised

Date 22 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
In a country that is supposed to be fair and equal, there are now minority groups who are institutionalised, marginalised in the pandemic. Please spare a thought for those who aren’t, because of lifting restrictions. Why ...
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Stopping My Anxiety Waves

Date 17 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
It’s been a long journey, a difficult journey, not one that I have relished, one that I’ve had to endure, but giving in wasn’t an option. I need to stop my anxiety wave, so that I can deal with the now. I need to put a rubber stop ...
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Being My Own Support

Date 13 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
I am my own heart beat and my own support. I’ve had to be, it’s just how my life worked out. To be a more supportive role for others it is important to be a support for yourself first. To be your own support you have ‘to like you’ be able…
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Sensory Flareups in the Pandemic

Date 9 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
Sensory flareups happen when something feels untoward, or something feels wrong. It is making us aware of an issue that can get worse. Sensory issues can be scary, can make you panicked, they can make you feel fearful. And even ...
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Living with a Disability in the Pandemic

Date 6 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
I’ve never seen myself as disabled more than I do today. It is clear from how the ‘disabled’ are being cast aside, that yes, we are very much disabled and we're not a priority. If anything we're now seen as an inconvenience. Vulnerable ...
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Nobody Goes Through Life Unscathed

Date 5 July 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
Emily Blunt… ‘Nobody goes through life unscathed.’ (theguardian.com) We don’t always have to deal with trauma to be scathed. We could have someone control us, a crossed word, an unkind sentiment, a pull down ...
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My Supermarket Visit

Date 30 June 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
Still very much in the throes of the pandemic and two and a half years later, I felt confident enough to go back to a supermarket. This is a milestone for me. Last Sunday, armed with a mask and visor and feeling okay about it, I went ...
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Looking at the Positives in Lockdown

Date 26 June 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
No matter what I deal with, I always try to find the positives. In the beginning of the pandemic with autism, it was difficult for me to get past the shock, to try to understand what was going. The pandemic has kept me mentally ...
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Covid-19, A Life 'Locked-In'

Date 22 June 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
The last few months since the lifting of restrictions in the UK has been difficult for me, impossible at times. My mental health has been up and down. A 'locked-in' life There is no getting away from a life, which is now compounded by the fact ...
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Why Covid has been Bungled

Date 17 June 2022
Author Ilana Estelle
How can we expect people to accurately assess their Covid risk when they don’t understand such basic information? Public health like the @CDCgov has failed so spectacularly during this pandemic I sometimes marvel at how badly this has been bungled – Ellison Cooper PhD via @Twitter The UK government aren’t talking…
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