Thoughts of self-esteem

Date 2 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
As children, we don't think about what self-esteem or confidence is. As a child, it's not something I ever questioned. I'm not sure as children we're old enough, or mature enough to equate or understand our feelings emotionally, or what they all mean. Looking back of course, it's easy to…
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Forewarned & empowered

Date 28 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Although 'forewarned is forearmed,' means knowing about something before it happens so we can be prepared for it, I feel the same way about finding out that I had Cerebral Palsy, albeit a little late. For me it was retrospective. The moment I found out what I was dealing with,…
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My Emotional Growth

Date 25 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Through maturity and growing up, we learn everything there is to know about ourselves, ready to embark on new relationships. We learn about our likes and dislikes, what irritates us, what makes us happy and what makes us sad, what makes us, us. We become independent thinkers, and ready for…
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The need to be proactive

Date 13 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I haven’t always been strong, determined or confident. Truth be known, growing up I was the complete opposite. I needed to stop relying on others where I wasn't getting the help and rely on myself instead. As a child I lost my way, but my thoughts would continually keep me…
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Compensatory senses

Date 9 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Over the years, my senses have compensated for the lack of conscious awareness of feeling, arising from extensive damage to my Cerebral Cortex, brought about through a stroke, to the area of the brain that deals with emotions and is the reason I have Cerebral Palsy. Because I lack emotional…
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Judgment & non-diagnosis

Date 7 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I know that had I have known what was wrong with me all those years ago, I wouldn’t have been judged on my lack of ability and what others thought I should be able to do. Getting through school was difficult enough, but school wasn’t the only place where me…
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Understanding my anxiety

Date 5 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I am always finding ways to bring about more understanding of my neurological symptoms, to find an explanation for the things I deal with daily. When there’s something I can’t control, like being late for an appointment, or working through an issue that’s not easily resolved, it’s easy for me…
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A Cerebral Palsy day

Date 1 September 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Cerebral palsy is never far from my mind. I hate how my life is governed by the condition and digestive problems. Being premature and struggling with digestion problems mean I can’t plan ahead, do days out, or do holidays well. Just going for a walk interferes with me being able…
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An early memory

Date 28 August 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I have an early memory of looking in the mirror and checking the curves on my back. Even then I knew something wasn’t right, when my shoulders were extended and straight, my back wasn’t. I would constantly stand and tilt myself around, so that I could see my back in…
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Disability & isolation

Date 22 August 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Although I never knew what was wrong with me as a child, I found myself working on internal dialogue in the hope that being positive would one day allow me to find out what I had been dealing with for years. Because my physical difficulties were always present, it made…
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Share your Journey

Date 12 August 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Thank you for your support and for being part of this journey. Why not take it a step further and join the conversation? If you haven’t already, now is the perfect time to connect with others by sharing your thoughts and experiences ...
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Frustrations of a disability

Date 7 August 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Having any physical disability as a child is difficult enough, but being part of a family may make it twice as difficult at times, because it’s easy to feel the odd one out, particularly if our disability singles us out. In my case, although comparisons were not explicitly being made,…
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