My Cerebral Cortex injury

Date 22 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
There are still parts of the jigsaw that I’m trying to piece together with regard to my Cerebral Cortex injury. I continue to have to note my symptoms, then equate those symptoms back to how those symptoms play out through neurological impairments, to work out the answers. Sounds simple ...
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Recognising my achievements

Date 17 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Although as a child I was never given credit, recognition or valued and this led to a lack of self-worth and confidence, my problem is more complicated than that because I deal with neurological issues. My most significant achievement to date is The CP Diary and yet sadly, I cannot…
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A letter to my Cerebral Palsy

Date 13 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
When we deal with a physical problem, it’s important we learn to embrace and accept our physical limitations, so that we’re okay with them. As a form of acceptance, I thought I would write a letter to my cerebral palsy. This is how it went. Thank you, Cerebral Palsy, for…
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A sense of purpose

Date 7 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Growing up not knowing I had Cerebral Palsy has given me a sense of purpose, a purpose to find out what was wrong with me and a sharpened purpose of my need to know and understand my childhood experiences, so that I could finally bring truth to them. It is…
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Time to heal

Date 3 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Yesterday I woke up to what was the beginning of a new world and one that I don’t recognise, because of the US election results. I’m not sure how we ever got to this place, it all seems a little hazy now. Given Trump’s divisive and nasty election campaign with…
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Not fitting in

Date 2 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
There’s a Kurt Cobain quote that goes: "They laugh at me because I’m different; I laugh at them because they’re all the same." For me dealing with a physical condition meant I didn't fit in, but children are cruel that way. Unless they’re taught how to accept and live amongst…
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Overcoming my challenges

Date 29 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I had a tendency to give up on things as a child, and I never understood why until now, but that didn’t stop others thinking I was lazy. There was a reason for my behavioural pattern, so that lets me off the hook. Unfortunately, it didn’t stop my flaws from…
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Square peg, round hole

Date 25 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
For me dealing with sensory issues is like trying to fit a square peg, into a round hole. Unless the peg matches perfectly, in practicalities and looks, how I see and interpret the world will always be fraught with difficulties. That’s how sensory issues work. It may seem trivial to…
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Freedom to choose

Date 18 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Without healing we will never have the emotional freedom to choose. Freedom represents peace derived from a willingness to challenge our experiences and existence and how we choose to live. Freedom to choose a different way to think. Freedom to see things the way they are, rather than the way…
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School life

Date 11 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I hated school because I struggled, both socially and academically. Okay, let me rephrase that, I liked school, but school didn’t like me. I found it difficult and isolating. I had no understanding of why I struggled, I just knew I did. Why I struggled to learn would only become…
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My core nature

Date 7 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child, my core nature that is a set of automatically triggered perceptions and values and priorities that are present at birth, were never identified by my parents. Being seen as an angry child, the underlying qualities that I was born with were completely ignored. Instead I was constantly…
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Empathising with others

Date 3 October 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Ever since I was a small child, I was always to empathise with others, because of my own physical problems, although I was more akin at expressing myself inward more than outward. Empathy can be spontaneous, inherent and inbuilt for those of us with those qualities, but not everyone will…
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