Parents and Trust

Date 5 January 2017
Author Ilana Estelle
remember a conversation that took place between me and a senior consultant when I went to find out and I got my cerebral palsy diagnosis. The consultant said that if I had have known about my cerebral palsy as a child, I would have had to wear calipers and put…
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Lowering my expectations

Date 3 January 2017
Author Ilana Estelle
If I was to make one change this year it would be to lower my expectations. We put countless expectations out there. We anticipate people will do things, make things happen and then feel let down when they don’t. When expectations fail And whilst people have their own expectations of…
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A reflection, 2016

Date 31 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
It’s that time of year again where I get to reflect on my year with the Diary. I still can’t believe the Diary is into its 7th year. It’s been a busy year for the Diary and as we look to 2017 we must continue to open our minds to…
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Dealing with trauma

Date 26 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
It is not possible to go through life without knowing what you deal with and not have any trauma attached to not knowing. And whilst we know there is a link between emotions and ill-health, lifestyle contribute. If we’re never encouraged to express how we feel, we will never talk…
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Call a spade a spade

Date 22 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child, I learned not to talk about my feelings, but I am able to do that now through my blog. I see talking as a necessity. I call a spade a spade. I describe things as they are. All scenarios are either black or white, there are no…
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Time to think

Date 18 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child, I used to retreat into my own little world. I’m not sure why but I was comfortable in my own space. I was happy there. We all have issues, but however we get to sort our issues out, they need to be solved and we need to…
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My Journey

Date 12 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
On the days I struggle to come to terms with the enormity of my neglect, I need to start looking at my experiences in another way. I need to understand why I was given this life. It doesn’t take away the initial problems of how I got to this place,…
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Managing my emotions

Date 7 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
The more I delve into my neurological impairments, the more I become demoralised. There is no doubt I got a raw deal. Since all feelings, emotions and dreams stem from the cerebral cortex and mine is extensively damaged, I can’t feel my emotions. Instead, I work with my intuition and…
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My emotional deficits

Date 4 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Due to the nature of my cerebral palsy and the damage around my cerebral cortex, I know I am more mentally and emotionally disabled, than I am physically. The cerebral cortex controls both motor function and emotions, and in my case my motor skills and physical disability are relatively mild.…
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Another piece of the jigsaw

Date 3 December 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
I’m still learning. While it’s 7 years since I found out about cerebral palsy, I haven’t stopped looking for answers on my neurological issues, in those 7 years. With a little help from Claudia, who is in her final year studying Psychology at St Andrew’s University, we have now pieced…
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My immature thinking

Date 29 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
Age is not always a guarantee of maturity and for me it’s absolutely true. I would love to write a different blog about maturity, of the things that make me emotionally mature, but my reality is that although I have physically grown, my thinking hasn’t matured with it. Through my…
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Not knowing gave me hope

Date 26 November 2016
Author Ilana Estelle
It is hard to imagine how not knowing about a diagnosis can give you hope, but for me, that is just what it did. I lived with hope, hope in the belief that I would get better and that whatever was wrong with me would right itself. I was comforted…
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