Today has been the kind of day I'd like to forget. Between not sleeping and family stuff going on that I can't change, I have concluded I need to move on.

Not by choice, out of necessity. I need to get to a mental place where I can have more clarity and peace, away from discussions and arguments. The problems have reinforced my Cerebral Palsy issues. The lack of support rests heavily sometimes.

On a brighter note, next Sunday we travel to Devon for a greatly needed break. I need to chill so that I can totally wind down for that. I will continue to journal from Devon: that is my plan.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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8 comments on “My feelings today”

  1. Sorry you're in that bad place today. I hope you feel better soon. You definitely need that break and have earned it. Hope the break goes well and you have a great time. Just unwind and things will wait for you here. Lisa

  2. I'm glad that you get to take a short break for a while. Even though it may be short in length it can really help. Thinking of you and sending my best regards.

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