I don’t feel happy or sad. Feeling indifferent. I’m a little tired. I’ve slowed down, but not to the point of stopping. I can’t seem to motivate myself at all. I’m not feeling totally unwell, but not feeling one hundred per cent.

When I begin to look at the bigger picture on my health, I concern myself of what I know I will eventually struggle with. I know that the supplements I take work for a finite time, then they stop working altogether when I’m ill and I begin to struggle again.

I must continue to work at what I deal with physically now with regard to my health and do everything I can to make sure I stay completely well. I think if we thought about our future with what we physically have to deal with daily, we would really begin to struggle with its concept. We can't all and won't stay well indefinitely.

Life's not like that, so perhaps we should all take each day in the moment, so that what we deal with doesn’t become bigger than it is or has to be. That way we’re more likely to stay optimally as best we can, in that moment.

There’s no more looking at the bigger picture around my health, particularly when I'm stressed or tired. I need to chill and bring my mind into the moment, so I work with what my body's telling me.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “Thoughts on my health”

  1. I agree with you one hundred per cent. If we want to stay at optimum health we have to work on it daily.

    Taking care of ourselves now will cut down on the problems we may face in the future. That's what I shall do also. My doctor said at my last visit that I'm doing tremendously well, considering I've had diabetes for 40+ years. I want it to stay that way as long as it can.

    I have too much riding on my health staying at top notch. I have a family to care for and I need to stay as healthy as I can to take care of my 6 year old son that depends on me greatly. I don't have time for complications but I have time to take care of me.

    I think you do great taking care of yourself. Wish I had more dedication like you do. You have inspired me to take better care of myself. Thank you!!

    1. Thanks Lisa!! You're welcome. You mention an incentive and you're right, that is so important.

      Your incentive is your 6 year old son and my incentive is being able to take a holiday without having to think or concern myself over what I deal with around illness.

      Let's do it and let me know how you get on.

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