Friday's surgery

Date 11 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
The week is going quickly and surgery day is nearly here. Remarkably I seem to be feeling okay about my surgery on Friday. I have got to the stage where I’m fed up of having to deal with another cyst and want it gone. I can’t say I am happy…
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Forgotten child

Date 10 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
I remember being told by one of the Specialists I was under when I was a small child; to go away and live my life, because there wasn’t much they could do with me. I had Cerebral Palsy. Given the fact that so many babies are still being born with…
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On relationships

Date 9 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Although this blog has taken me a while to write it it’s been far from easy. I have more information now on the part of my brain that is damaged. The Cerebral Cortex is affected. I now recognise an issue that I have been struggling with for many years. From…
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My confidence

Date 7 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
When my children were small I seemed to have much more confidence. Now I seem to be lacking in confidence as I see my children become more confident by the bucket loads. I am immensely proud of how confident they have become, which can make me feel less than confident…
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Being accountable

Date 6 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Being unaccountable means that we will never take responsibility for ourselves, or our actions. It also means we’ll continue to apportion blame and find excuses, put things off and indulge in only doing the minimum. Accountability is the total opposite: accountability is taking responsibility for all our actions regardless of…
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Today's feelings

Date 4 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
It’s amazing how in one day I can feel so inspirational, together and happy and the next day I feel the total opposite. When I’m on top of my game, my blogs reflect positive thoughts, and when I’m not, I write about my struggles, whatever those struggles are. I believe…
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Staying motivated & positive

Date 2 August 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
I must stay motivated and positive so that I keep any negative thoughts at bay. I am keeping myself busy and that’s helping me shift any negative thoughts. I’m not a negative person by nature and tend to stay upbeat and positive, so I am trying to stay motivated and ...
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Making progress

Date 31 July 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
As I start today’s blog, my thoughts don’t seem to be heading in any direction. Maybe when I start to type something, things will become clear. When something troubles me, it’s usually there in my mind. I always try and see the positive even when I’m dealing with such negative…
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Yet more problems

Date 30 July 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
When I was a little girl I used to struggle with bad thoughts. Now those thoughts have come back through yet more health problems and I am struggling to stay well. For a few days now I have had a problem with my eye. It has now been confirmed that…
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Feeling a little blue

Date 27 July 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
I’m feeling a little blue today. I’m sure I’m being tested on my health. I also can’t change the way I do things and yet there are days where I feel I must defend my corner. Growing up, I would start something and lose interest. It was never intentioned, but…
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Constructive criticisms

Date 25 July 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
I remember attending prizegiving for my daughter many years ago, at which the headmistress talked to the girls about constructive criticism. She was trying to impress upon them that the harder they worked in school, the more they would achieve. She was referring to the girls who didn’t work during…
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Finding our own way

Date 22 July 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
How many of us will spend our lives living someone else’s life? That means living with dreams and goals that are not ours or ever achieved, instead basing our lives on what other people expect or want for us. Instead, we must find our own way. It is human nature…
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