Apart, but closer than ever

Date 28 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
Losing a loved one means physical separation, but on a spiritual level it can bring you closer back together. That is exactly what has happened here and I'm loving it. I miss my physical life with my twin I am aware I need to heal, but ...
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Recovering from Dental Trauma

Date 24 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
It's taken 9 months, but I've just connected with the swollen muscle and the fact that I've been dealing with dental trauma. I talk about things, but that doesn't always mean I connect with my words, it's weird. I can bite, chew better and close ...
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Dental Trauma

Date 20 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
Watching my twin's declining health for 6 months, is the reason I sustained dental trauma two months after losing her. Mouth injuries are common around trauma. It's nearly a year since I lost my twin and I've had dental ...
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My Journey of Self-Discovery

Date 18 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
Through writing and finding out late about a disability I didn't know I had led me on to a journey of self-discovery and healing through mindfulness. A mindfulness that would help me to finally understand myself ...
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Growing Up With Unaddressed Anger

Date 15 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child I had an excuse for my anger. I grew up with a mental illness, and for me, struggling was the norm. It was a time when I didn't know why I was deeply upset about my circumstances, about my life. About the fact I had something ...
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It's Never Too Late To Pursue Your Passions

Date 13 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
In the pandemic, I have spent my time trying to motivate, not to do better and putting one foot in front of the other has been difficult. Living with trauma is difficult. It's why I got into writing. Writing has become my passion ...
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All Burned Out

Date 11 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
I continually lived with trauma as a child growing up with a disability I didn't know I had. With everything I’ve had to deal with over the years, and through the trauma of losing my twin in December 2022, I literally feel worn ...
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The Importance of Mental Health

Date 9 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
Mental health is important, but we insist on making other things more relevant, and more important. Since my twin died in December 2022, I seem to be reflecting more than when my parents died. Cerebral Palsy is a gift Cerebral ...
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Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

Date 4 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
I am not underestimating my illness in the last 10 months since my twin passed away and what I went through in the preceding months before she died. Watching my twin decline in the months leading up to her death resulted in ...
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Growing Up as a Twin

Date 1 November 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
Without my twin, the world has just got a whole lot scarier. As children we were two peas in a pod, we looked similar and we dressed the same. We attended the same schools, were in the same class, and shared the same friends ...
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Validation of The CP Diary

Date 29 October 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
The CP Diary is now on Medium! Below is the first paragraph to one of my mental health blogs, followed by a response from a reader, Julia Kalman. I am grateful to Julie for her validation. "Writing on my blog for 12 years ...
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My Twin Loss: Healing the Grief

Date 27 October 2023
Author Ilana Estelle
For anyone experiencing the loss of a twin, life can be a daunting challenge, when we’re left to pick up the pieces without our other half. The grief and void we feel is like no other, particularly because twins lives are biologically ...
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