Why we hold on to anger

Date 1 July 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
“Anger is defined as an emotion characterised by tension and hostility arising from frustration, real or imagined injury by another, or perceived injustice” – Google Anger Anger is a spontaneous response to an issue or situation that ...
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Struggling to come to terms

Date 28 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Getting myself off the starting block for taking the vaccine, is near to impossible. Living with Covid-19 has sent my anxiety and autism into overdrive. For every reason I tell myself I can do it, I’ve already given myself ten reasons why ...
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Growing up with a determination

Date 23 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Had everything come together, and everyone done their job around my disability, I would have been put into a special school, so my life would have been worse in that respect, but I still never grew up the way I wanted to. Although ...
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Going out for the first time

Date 20 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
t’s been 15 months now since the UK initially went into lockdown in March 2021 due to Covid-19, and with the outside world feeling beyond my reach mentally and emotionally, today is a pinnacle moment. I managed to go out. Yes, going out for the first time to a grocery…
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Autism, free-falling into a tailspin

Date 10 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
When my gut and intuition are in sync with my understanding I do bring clarity to my issues, otherwise I free fall into a tailspin. As a child, where my parents-initiated decisions, I lived with no stress in that regard. Living with ...
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Reflecting on my trauma

Date 8 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
No matter what I had to deal with around my mental, emotional and physical struggles as a small child, giving in wasn’t an option. Although my symptoms didn’t make sense, my every day mental and emotional struggles were ...
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A small but significant step

Date 4 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
It is now 15 months since we went into our first lockdown in March in the UK, having initially heard about the pandemic in January 2020, and I am finally adapting to living around the Covid-19 pandemic. A significant step Having ...
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Being scrutinised

Date 2 June 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Growing up, I was dealing with a disability I didn’t know about. Being born with a disability and struggling with even the basics, meant it became clear I didn’t fit into other people’s idea of perfect. Although my disability was never spoken about, there was scrutiny around the things I…
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Reflecting on Covid-19

Date 29 May 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Without knowing about my disability, I spent a life in reflection. It’s how I made sense of my world growing up, of what I had to deal with. It’s how I coped. Using reflection Using reflection is how I cope. We first heard about Covid-19 ...
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The Asian Flu Pandemic

Date 25 May 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Whilst the UK Government's scientists were initially telling us those with a pre-existing condition were more likely to die from the virus, statistics are showing us a different outcome a year into Covid-19. Anyone can die ...
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Normalising Disability

Date 21 May 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
I have cerebral palsy and I am not in a wheelchair. It's common for people to associate cerebral palsy with a wheelchair. As a child, although I didn't know I had cerebral palsy or had never heard of it, when I did get to find out about ...
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My Autistic Brain

Date 13 May 2021
Author Ilana Estelle
Autism is used to describe neurological differences in brain development, and sensory differences in how our brain perceives and processes information. My autistic brain changes the way I am able to interact with others and ...
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