Writing through the Past: A Journey of Learning and Understanding

Date 1 January 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Happy New Year! Welcome to 2025. I want to express my heartfelt gratitude to everyone for their support throughout 2024. Thank you for taking the time to read my work. I hope you’ve gained as much from my writing as ...
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Grief through an Autistic Lens

Date 28 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
I am still feeling overwhelmed due to a combination of factors, including sensory overload and the challenges that come with a mental disability and how I can fit into that, and getting to grips with the loss of ...
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Christmas 2024 Reflections

Date 24 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
It's that time of year again and as Christmas 2024 fast approaches, I find myself reflecting on my twin and mental health. I want to throw mental health into the mix, because it's not far. It is never far. Mental health and personal ...
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Loneliness and Sensory Struggles

Date 20 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
"There’s a dissonance between what I now understand about my twin in spirit and the emotional weight of a life without her. The gap between my awareness of our connection and the absence of her physical presence ...
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Managing Sensory Overload in Autism

Date 18 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
I have always struggled with sensory issues (sensitivities) even though I wasn't aware I had them as a child. That’s why I found it so hard to watch my twin during her final months. For those like me with sensory sensitivities ...
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Shaping Shadows: Writing Through the Past

Date 17 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
"Writing about the past feels is stepping into a room I’ve closed the door on but never left behind. It does give me the chance to look at it all – the moments I wish I could rewrite with a better outcome. Sometimes, putting words ...
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Redefining Me

Date 15 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
I came across an article Prince Harry wrote for one of the newspapers which resonated greatly. From an early age, I was cast into a role I didn't ask for, before I even had a chance to find myself. I was the angry twin, the difficult ...
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The CP Diary: Keeping Up With Change

Date 14 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
Change is inevitable. Change remains a constant in our lives. Forced change is something you bring on yourself and that's not always good change, particularly if the decisions made put you in a worse place. For me any form of ...
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The Art of Remembering: A Journey through Memory and Self-Discovery

Date 11 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
The quote, “I wanted to remember in order to be able to return” by Anaïs Nin deeply resonates with me. It captures how I feel about memory and its connection to my experiences and my past. Nin, known for exploring the ...
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Writing Through the Silence

Date 10 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
"It's two years to the day since I lost you. As I continue to sit down to write, I am enveloped by a quiet stillness, a space filled with echoes of what was and what physically can never be again. This is not just another day; it’s another ...
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Decide, Align, Manifest: Choose with Intention

Date 9 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
There comes a time when you're faced with a choice that feels bigger than anything you've encountered before. It’s not a decision based on logic, or your typical pros and cons list – it’s a decision that comes from deep ...
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Hidden Truths: Discovering Myself

Date 7 December 2024
Author Ilana Estelle
I don’t have many medical records, but the ones I do hold are invaluable. This is my journey—not an easy one to recount, but a journey I’ve had to undertake nonetheless. It’s a path I was forced to walk after discovering that my ...
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