Trust and Truth

Date 23 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"As a child, I didn’t know what trust or truth was, but I don’t think you do when you're small. I didn’t stop to question trust or truth, but I do remember thinking they must have been in place. Looking back there was no trust or truth ...
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Making Sense of my Symptoms

Date 21 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"I continually live and deal with anxiety because I have autism. The anxiety I have creates panic and the panic I feel, I don’t always have control over. Time alone is the only time my mind feels clear—a space to reflect, to make sense ...
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Child Neglect

Date 19 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
Since I started my blog 9 years ago, I haven't talked about my child neglect in detail and unless as the child you look at each situation independently of another, it’s not always easy to understand that what you have ...
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Others Working with Me

Date 11 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
It is important I can work around my autism, which means others need to understand what I deal with and work with me. With a non-diagnosis I never understood that's what it was. I was simply expected to conform with everyone ...
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Personal Success

Date 9 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"As a child, growing up I never thought about success or whether I would become successful. I learned very early on what my parents' expectations of me were. I've probably said this before, but it was expected that ...
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Irritated and Angry

Date 6 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"As a child, I carried anger – an irritation that continually simmered beneath the surface, sparked by the unspoken injustice. I lashed out with words, my only way of making sense of what I couldn’t understand. I was ...
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Remorse

Date 2 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
“True remorse is never just a regret over consequence; it is a regret over motive.”- Mignon McLauglin. I have nothing to be remorseful for. Remorse is when we do something that is calculated, something we ...
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The things that I hate

Date 1 September 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
I hate that with autism my issues are issues until they become non-issues. I hate that every issue is a problem until it’s dealt with and that’s not as easy as it sounds – and others think I'm either awkward, stubborn or paranoid ...
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Building Trust

Date 29 August 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"Trust wasn’t something I was given growing up, especially not knowing I was born with a disability. But when handled with care and understanding, a parent’s approach can lay the foundation a child needs to ...
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Denialism

Date 25 August 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"Denialism is an irrational action that withholds the validation of an experience or event, past or present, where a person refuses to accept their reality by means of experience or observation. No matter my difficulties I never ...
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Dealing with Being Different

Date 22 August 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"Growing up with a disability I didn't know I had, meant I was different. Dealing with being different, wasn't easy. With skirts on, you could physically see I was different, how I mentally and emotionally presented also ...
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Working Blindly

Date 20 August 2019
Author Ilana Estelle
"It wasn’t just living in the dark, yes there was that, but others thinking it was okay no to address or talk about a disability I didn't know I had has been my biggest struggle – having to work blindly up to my diagnosis in my ...
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